Dep's Poetry

Treacherous Fate
(Mar 19th, 2004)

Oh treacherous fate
A pox upon thee
Why does thee mock me
And steal all that I need

Why does thee deny me
The love which I need so
The companionship to sustain me
The partnership that I desire

Why does thee dangle
Hope from thy fingers of mist
Only to snatch it away
When I leap upon it

Why does thee play
This game of thine
Have you not enough of
The screams of a tortured soul

Oh treacherous fate
Do not deny me again
Do not mock me once more
For surely I will come undone

No One At Last
(Jan 6th, 2004)

The moon stares from above
Upon this lovely scene
So much love fills the air
So much hate has left this place

For the words have been said
And the tension is gone
Your answer is a yes
I am no longer a pawn

Slowly we move together
Giving and taking from the other
Nights of passion fly by
And evenings of love entrance me

So much love, so much passion
This is my perfect life
No more could I ask
No more do I need

Then, with a desperate cry
I spring upright from rest
To find that right beside me
There lies no one at last

A Fork
(Dec 12th, 2004)

A winter's night
A road lies before me
The darkness swallows all light
And all the hope within me

Suddenly a fork appears
Left or right I wonder
One leads to my destination
The other to my death

Which is which I wonder
As the darkness tightens its grip
No road signs to show me
No people to ask directions

I try to stop and think
But the brakes are not working
I speed ever closer
Trying to choose left or right

On a winter's night
No one to guide me
Left or right
Which is my path

One is rocky
Many turns, many twists
The other is smooth
And straight as an arrow

To reach my destination
Which should I choose
Left or right
Which is the path for me

An Intangible Gift
(Mar 15th, 2004)

Behold, behold
A gift more valuable than gold
More intangible than wind
Behold this gift of old

Raise it up on high
Shout its praises to the sky
Yet know it as a two faced coin
Maybe leave you high and dry

Know it as double edged sword
One blade cuts your foes
The other cuts your heart
And all is but chaos

Behold, behold
A gift more valuable than gold
Yet deadly as a knife
Behold this gift of old

And once you have recieved it
You should give it back
If it is yours to give
And not bequethed to another

Raise it up on high
Proudly tell the world
Loudly shout it out and
No harm will come from this

Sing its song forever
Proudly end it never
Yet always be aware
The other side of the sword

Behold, behold
A gift more valuable than gold
You who hear me now
Behold this gift of old

Sacrifice
(Mar 9th, 2004)

You have not seen the depths of sorrow
Nor the depths of jealousy
Until you've been where I've been
Walked these dark paths of mine

Until you've sat beside
The one you love so dear
And know you cannot be
With her now or forever

Until you've seen her
With another man she loves more
Kiss, hug, hold hands
Each one tearing at your heart

No you have not seen
The depths of jealosuy
The depths of depression
Until you see your love like that

And I say that it's alright
That she must do what her heart says
But my heart now cries
For her to love me instead

No you have not seen
The depths of sorrow
Until you sacrifice all
For the one you love

Fortune Teller
(Mar 9th, 2004)

What does the future hold
Is it for any man to know
Will I still be here tomorrow
Or will I be lost in sorrow
So how much should I know
Fortune teller of old

What is my place
In this brave new world we create
How can one say I am
This, that and the other
Tell me fortune teller of late
What now is my place

No identity but your own
No life except that you live
No labels save what you create
No name except what you will make
No brand but that of an individuel
This is now your fate

And what of love?
Not mine to tell
Only yours to see
As time wanders on

It's Just Me
(Mar 9th, 2004)

Why am I mocked
By a God that doesn't exist
Why do I dream
Of her all night long
Why do I give
Never to recieve
Why do I try
Never to be believed
Why do I hope
That the world can change
Why do I stop
So they are with another
Why do I cry
When I never try
Why do I love
When they never do
Why do I believe
When nothing is real
Why do I speak
When they never hear
Why do I give up
So they can be with another
Why do I live
When I have no purpose

The Cliff
(Mar 6th, 2004)

A thousand miles tall
They stand at it's edge
Gazing at the depths
Of the cliff

The cliff
Where dreams are made and broken
Where fate is forced to choose
What is meant for thee

The cliff
Where hearts are broken
And remade each day
And only chaos reigns

The cliff
Where the Dead and the Damned
The Lucky and the Chosen
All came into being

And now another
Walks to the edge
Seeing the height
She takes a deep breath

Now she will plunge
And Fate itself shall choose
Her life, her love, her path
Not the twisted words of him

But she must dive
To find the truth
And if fate should fail her
I will break her fall

I'll tend to her wounds
Wounds of the mind and spirit
Even though she ignored
That which I have said

For only in diving
Can she see with eyes
Unclouded by a veil of love
Only then can she see true

Only in diving
Off this terrible cliff
Can she learn about
The equally terrible truth

Save The World
(Mar 3rd, 2004)

So what do I say
What do I do
When those that I love
Cannot be told the truth

Why do I try
When no one believes
The truth that I bring
The song that I sing

And when my love fails
I must stand strong
Pretend it's alright
When really it's not

For I cannot bear to see you
You and you, two vees
And now I finally see
The truth which must be

I cannot save the world
Nor shape it as I want
I can only try and
Save the ones I love

So I'll stay here and try
To fake it's all okay
When deep down inside
I'm dying piece by piece

Last Poem
(Feb 26th, 2004)

Nothing more awaits me
Down this path, proven false
And where it all began
Here it all shall end

No more poems
Of an angel I loved
No more pleas
From this tortured soul
No more tears
Over forsaken love
No more poems
After this last one

For eight summers
You've been in my heart
Through the storms and perils
I've held onto you

My life, my love
My poems, my songs
All for you, my angel
Can you not see

Without you to love
I am nothing

My reason for getting up
My reason for trying
My reason to live
My reason for writing

Nothing

Oh to turn back time
To the days of joy
Which we shared together
Days of love, days of passion
Days of happiness

To see the moonlight
Upon your beautiful face
To kiss your soft cheek
To caress you as we fall asleep

All a dream now
A silly dream of mine
Dreaming of a perfection
Which cannot exist

Though I have walked
A thousand miles
Down this path of mine
It is now time

Time for me to turn
And trek towards the light
You must be with your own
And I must be with mine
Even though I loved

For the sake of you and I
I must forget
This hopeless love of mine
That ate me up inside

And so I say farewell
To my angel, my love
May your future be bright
Full of joy and love

And I bid farewell
To these feelings for you
May they die a quick death
Though I know they won't

I can't say we'll remain friends
For it is so difficult
To sit beside you and know
We can never be

So I say farewell
And I promise this
No more poems or rhymes
No more tears

No more of this

JEALOUSY
Green tinged devil
Destroyer of men
Scourge of the honorable
Defender of hate

I rise now to do battle
With this treacherous foe
And no potion, no spell
Can aide me in this fight

I must remain strong
Must fight for the right thing
When my heart tells me that
All of this is wrong

Must let her make her choices
Not let my emtions control me
But there is a fundentental difference
Between knowing in my head
And knowing in my heart

So please give me the strength
To survive while they're together
Grant me the control I need
To fake the approval I do not feel

Let me control myself now
And perhaps in the future
I can allow myself to relax
And allow my love to show

CANDLE
A single candle
Lighting the darkness
Lighting the depths of my soul
Showing me my way

Until, with a flash
And a whimper so soft
The candle goes out
Smothered by doubt

And without my candle
My feet go awry
I trip and fall
Taking others into the dark

And though I have a match
Hiding in my pack
I cannot see to find it
Nor do I have the strength to light it

So in the darkness I'll remain
Cold and broken on the floor
Others lying all around
In darkness, in shadow

Until the day dawns
When another will come
To drag a match from my pack
And light my single candle

LAST POEM
Nothing more awaits me
Down this path, proven false
And where it all began
Here it all shall end

No more poems
Of an angel I love
No more pleas
From this tortured soul
No more tears
Over forsaken love
No more poems
After this last one

For eight summers
You've been in my heart
Through rainstorms and perils
I've held onto you

My life, my love
My poems, my songs
All for you, my angel
Can you not see

With you to love
I am nothing

My reason for getting up
My reason for trying
My reason to live
It is all gone now

For eight summers
It has been like this
But this love inside me
Will not see another

Oh to turn back time
To the days of joy
Which we shared
Days of love, days of passion
Days of happiness

To see the moonlight
Upon your beautiful face
To kiss your soft cheek
To caress you as we fall asleep

All a dream now
A silly hope of mine
Dreaming of a perfection
Which doesn't exist

Though I have walked
A thousand miles for you
Down these paths of darkness
It is not time

Time for me to turn
And trek towards the light
You must be with your own
And I must be with mine
Even though I love

For the sake of you and I
I must forget
This hopeless love of mine
That eats me up inside

And so I say farewell
To my angel, my love
May your future be bright
Full of joy and love

And I bid farewell
To my love for you
May it die a quick death
Though I know it will not

I can't say we'll remain friends
For it is so difficult
To sit beside you now
When I know that never
Can we be together

So I say farewell
And I promise you this
No more poems
No more tears

No more of this