Friday, January 23, 2004
ONLY ONE PATH
In the darkness of eternal night
Everything becomes so clear
My path brightly lit
By lanterns of darkness
For there is but one path
And no matter the pain
No matter the sorrow
I must travel it today
There are no words left within
Only a vast emptiness
Which only you can fill
My love, my angel
And so, upon the morrow
As the sun rises in the East
All shall be made clear to you
Which should have been made before
My failing of the past
Shall be corrected
And that which should have been said yesterday
Will be said today
For there is but one path
The path of loving
No matter the consequences
And I will travel it today
In the darkness of eternal night
Everything becomes so clear
My path brightly lit
By lanterns of darkness
For there is but one path
And no matter the pain
No matter the sorrow
I must travel it today
There are no words left within
Only a vast emptiness
Which only you can fill
My love, my angel
And so, upon the morrow
As the sun rises in the East
All shall be made clear to you
Which should have been made before
My failing of the past
Shall be corrected
And that which should have been said yesterday
Will be said today
For there is but one path
The path of loving
No matter the consequences
And I will travel it today
A slight deviation from normal. I have posted here my narrative essay, which I wrote for an english exam and then copied to take home. I find it is very good. Comments welcome.
It was a cold winter's day and a young man was just beginning his daily journey to school. He had pale blue eyes that nobody seemed to notice behind his black rimmed glasses, and black hair cut short. He wore an oversized denim jacket to hide the fact that he was slightly overweight. Not many people noticed him as he was of average height, average looks, and he tried his best to act like a normal teenager. However, today he had an unusually sad look upon his face and as he walked, he seemed to stare at something that was not there. It was obvious that this young man had important thoughts on his mind.
"Perhaps Julianna is right," he thought to himself. "Perhaps she is wrong for me."
His name was Mike and she was Bridget, a woman whom he loved in a way that only those who believe in the power of love can. Recently however, his friends were telling him otherwise. "She's not normal Mike," they told him. "She doesn't deserve you."
Mike thought about all of these things. Could so many people be wrong about this? Would he be better off without her? There were so many things to consider.
He arrived at his bus stop and made his decision. That many people couldn't be wrong about her. She was so weird and had too many strange habits. It was over. He stepped onto the bus.
He stepped off five minutes later at the transfer point. Usually he met Bridget here and he wanted to tell her right now. The words were in his mouth but as he looked around, he didn't see the person they were meant for. He shrugged, it couldn't be helped. He'd tell her on the way home. There was one more thing he had to do however.
Between two bus shelters, he took the necklace she had given him for his birthday a month ago and dropped it in the snow. Perhaps it would bring the person who found it better luck than it had brought him.
The next part of the journey passed quickly as he stared out of the bus window, thinking about nothing. He spoke to no one and responded shortly to the questions which people asked him.
The first three classes of the day went quickly and Mike found himself at the beginning of lunch with nothing to do. He played chess often and he was in the mood for a game today. He walked to the room for the school's tiny chess club and quickly found an opponent.
About half way through the game, Damian and his girlfriend entered the room. Damian was a good friend of Mike's and they often spent their lunch break together. The couple sat in the corner of the room, and wrapped themselves in each others arms staring longingly into each other's eyes.
Mike watched them for a moment feeling an emotion which he found hard to describe. He wanted what Damian had... and to his surprise, he wanted it with Bridget. It didn't matter what other people thought, only what he felt. How could he have forsaken his chosen love? He ran out of the room, leaving his chess partner and the others in the room in confusion. He hid backstage in the auditorium as he wept.
"What have I done?" he thought to himself. Time passed slowly and more tears crept down his cheeks. Finally, he heard the bell for last period. He stood, wiped the tears from his eyes and walked out of the auditorium with a new found courage.
On his way home that night, he dug in the snow between the bus shelters. Finding the necklace, he put it on, feeling foolish for ever taking it off. Now that it hung on his breast again, he was filled with a sense of hope. Turning, he saw Bridget getting off a bus. His heart aglow, he went to be with his love.
It was a cold winter's day and a young man was just beginning his daily journey to school. He had pale blue eyes that nobody seemed to notice behind his black rimmed glasses, and black hair cut short. He wore an oversized denim jacket to hide the fact that he was slightly overweight. Not many people noticed him as he was of average height, average looks, and he tried his best to act like a normal teenager. However, today he had an unusually sad look upon his face and as he walked, he seemed to stare at something that was not there. It was obvious that this young man had important thoughts on his mind.
"Perhaps Julianna is right," he thought to himself. "Perhaps she is wrong for me."
His name was Mike and she was Bridget, a woman whom he loved in a way that only those who believe in the power of love can. Recently however, his friends were telling him otherwise. "She's not normal Mike," they told him. "She doesn't deserve you."
Mike thought about all of these things. Could so many people be wrong about this? Would he be better off without her? There were so many things to consider.
He arrived at his bus stop and made his decision. That many people couldn't be wrong about her. She was so weird and had too many strange habits. It was over. He stepped onto the bus.
He stepped off five minutes later at the transfer point. Usually he met Bridget here and he wanted to tell her right now. The words were in his mouth but as he looked around, he didn't see the person they were meant for. He shrugged, it couldn't be helped. He'd tell her on the way home. There was one more thing he had to do however.
Between two bus shelters, he took the necklace she had given him for his birthday a month ago and dropped it in the snow. Perhaps it would bring the person who found it better luck than it had brought him.
The next part of the journey passed quickly as he stared out of the bus window, thinking about nothing. He spoke to no one and responded shortly to the questions which people asked him.
The first three classes of the day went quickly and Mike found himself at the beginning of lunch with nothing to do. He played chess often and he was in the mood for a game today. He walked to the room for the school's tiny chess club and quickly found an opponent.
About half way through the game, Damian and his girlfriend entered the room. Damian was a good friend of Mike's and they often spent their lunch break together. The couple sat in the corner of the room, and wrapped themselves in each others arms staring longingly into each other's eyes.
Mike watched them for a moment feeling an emotion which he found hard to describe. He wanted what Damian had... and to his surprise, he wanted it with Bridget. It didn't matter what other people thought, only what he felt. How could he have forsaken his chosen love? He ran out of the room, leaving his chess partner and the others in the room in confusion. He hid backstage in the auditorium as he wept.
"What have I done?" he thought to himself. Time passed slowly and more tears crept down his cheeks. Finally, he heard the bell for last period. He stood, wiped the tears from his eyes and walked out of the auditorium with a new found courage.
On his way home that night, he dug in the snow between the bus shelters. Finding the necklace, he put it on, feeling foolish for ever taking it off. Now that it hung on his breast again, he was filled with a sense of hope. Turning, he saw Bridget getting off a bus. His heart aglow, he went to be with his love.
LIES
(BHBE)
Some lies must be told
Some lies can be for surprises
Some lies ease the minds of others
Who worry without reason
But some lies should not be told
Yet I have told thee one
The same one you told me
Oh sweet bitter irony
Not to tell you is my lie
Tell you of my love
For you, yes you
You of brown eyes and brown hair
If only there was a way
That we could be together
I'd tear this necklace off
And throw it to the river
Yet you love another
Even if he loves you not
And I still love another
Even if she loves me not
And so we must try
To find our first loves
But if first love should fail
What then should we do
We two so similar
It seems so obvious
But only in mine
Perhaps not in yours
Perhaps you feel differently
And if this is so
Then I will accept it
For life will go on
But I love you
As I have loved very few people
And I ask thee now a favour
Forgive me of my lie
Forgive me for not telling thee
How deep my love runs
But... I thought it for the best
For a couple we cannot be
Not yet... not until we both move on
From love of another
Of a dark dragon
And a dark angel
Persue thy dreams
And I, my own
Until the day should come
That our love is meant to be.
(BHBE)
Some lies must be told
Some lies can be for surprises
Some lies ease the minds of others
Who worry without reason
But some lies should not be told
Yet I have told thee one
The same one you told me
Oh sweet bitter irony
Not to tell you is my lie
Tell you of my love
For you, yes you
You of brown eyes and brown hair
If only there was a way
That we could be together
I'd tear this necklace off
And throw it to the river
Yet you love another
Even if he loves you not
And I still love another
Even if she loves me not
And so we must try
To find our first loves
But if first love should fail
What then should we do
We two so similar
It seems so obvious
But only in mine
Perhaps not in yours
Perhaps you feel differently
And if this is so
Then I will accept it
For life will go on
But I love you
As I have loved very few people
And I ask thee now a favour
Forgive me of my lie
Forgive me for not telling thee
How deep my love runs
But... I thought it for the best
For a couple we cannot be
Not yet... not until we both move on
From love of another
Of a dark dragon
And a dark angel
Persue thy dreams
And I, my own
Until the day should come
That our love is meant to be.
To Know Paradise
Hold you
Touch you
Feel you
Love you
Be with you
All the lonely night
Through your dark hour and mine
Never letting go
Know your mind
Your dreams, your desires
Your nightmares, your fears
Helping you through it all
Know your body
Every ache, every moan
Every cry of passion
Loving and lusting for it
I fear nothing
Not the depths of your mind
Nor the nights of rough passion
Only being without you
I love you
To hold you, touch you
Feel you, love you, be with you
Is to know paradise
Hold you
Touch you
Feel you
Love you
Be with you
All the lonely night
Through your dark hour and mine
Never letting go
Know your mind
Your dreams, your desires
Your nightmares, your fears
Helping you through it all
Know your body
Every ache, every moan
Every cry of passion
Loving and lusting for it
I fear nothing
Not the depths of your mind
Nor the nights of rough passion
Only being without you
I love you
To hold you, touch you
Feel you, love you, be with you
Is to know paradise
Bleeding
Bleeding on the floor
Heart in pieces
Trying to figure out why
You've done this to me
Why the words which hurt
Why the torturous nights alone
Trying to figure out what
You feel for me
So much colder now
So much closer to the truth
So many miles between us
And I wonder why
I love you
So why the insults
I need you
So why'd you push me away
Can you change
I want you to
Need you to change
Or I will have to leave
Bleeding on the floor
Heart in pieces
No more, no more
This is the last time
Bleeding on the floor
Heart in pieces
Trying to figure out why
You've done this to me
Why the words which hurt
Why the torturous nights alone
Trying to figure out what
You feel for me
So much colder now
So much closer to the truth
So many miles between us
And I wonder why
I love you
So why the insults
I need you
So why'd you push me away
Can you change
I want you to
Need you to change
Or I will have to leave
Bleeding on the floor
Heart in pieces
No more, no more
This is the last time
Naive
Fate
What a torturous word
Everything predetermined
No choices
No freedom
No chance for change
Tonight once again
I cry myself to sleep
Wondering about fate
About love
About life
About everything
Is this meant to be
Me apart from you
Do you not want me
Need me
Care for me
Love me
Are all my dreams but ash
My hopes naught but a childs naive cry
What do you feel, my love
Love?
Hate?
Nothing?
Am I naive
Missing the signs you give?
But what do they mean?
Love?
Hate?
Both?
Stupid and reckless
Trying once again
To find the golden apple
In you
In me
Together
But never do I regret
These years spent waiting
It was my choice to love
To care
To dare
To dream
So answer me honestly
What do you feel
Do you share my dream?
My desire?
My need?
My love?
Fate
What a torturous word
Everything predetermined
No choices
No freedom
No chance for change
Tonight once again
I cry myself to sleep
Wondering about fate
About love
About life
About everything
Is this meant to be
Me apart from you
Do you not want me
Need me
Care for me
Love me
Are all my dreams but ash
My hopes naught but a childs naive cry
What do you feel, my love
Love?
Hate?
Nothing?
Am I naive
Missing the signs you give?
But what do they mean?
Love?
Hate?
Both?
Stupid and reckless
Trying once again
To find the golden apple
In you
In me
Together
But never do I regret
These years spent waiting
It was my choice to love
To care
To dare
To dream
So answer me honestly
What do you feel
Do you share my dream?
My desire?
My need?
My love?
One Year
One year
Many minutes gone by
Many miles behind me
As I continue my journey
Into hell
Into heaven
Here upon this night
Without you, without anyone
My feelings trashed
My heart bleeding upon the floor
One year
Yet I have lived a lifetime
But nothing have I gained
Except shattered dreams of love
of lust
of happiness
So here we stand
On the eve of a new year
And what will you say
When I say I love you to your face
One year
So much discovered, learned
So many tears have I cried
For thee, my angel of the dark
For Freya
For everyone
Robbed of perfection thrice
But what does it matter now
For when it's all said and done
What does anything matter
There is no one for me
I realize that now
In my foolish arrogance
I forgot what an angel is
The one with whom you cannot be
Who am I
To believe that she loves me
Who am I
I don't deserve any of it
What is right
What is wrong
I know not
Only what I want
What I want
Is you, my angel
And yet you love me not
So I am robbed once more
Why does it matter
This thing we call love
In the end of all things
Who will hear of my love
My poetry will die
I will die
My angel will die
And nobody will remember
Of a man called Dep
And his dark angel
Of his love for her
Of his tears for her
Nothing matters
So why carry on
When it all ends in loss
When all is forgotten
Because in the end
You measure a man
By what he stands for
By his actions
I will be remembered for loving
Not for giving up
Even though I know the outcome
I will gamble my heart
One year
So much love
Now she will know
Now she must know
Even if it hurts me
Even if it kills me
So much heartache
Anguish, pain, death
Sorrow and tears
She will know it all
So here on New Years Eve
I will tell her of my dreams
We will see if she loves
Or if eight years of love
If our love is but a dream
One year
Many minutes gone by
Many miles behind me
As I continue my journey
Into hell
Into heaven
Here upon this night
Without you, without anyone
My feelings trashed
My heart bleeding upon the floor
One year
Yet I have lived a lifetime
But nothing have I gained
Except shattered dreams of love
of lust
of happiness
So here we stand
On the eve of a new year
And what will you say
When I say I love you to your face
One year
So much discovered, learned
So many tears have I cried
For thee, my angel of the dark
For Freya
For everyone
Robbed of perfection thrice
But what does it matter now
For when it's all said and done
What does anything matter
There is no one for me
I realize that now
In my foolish arrogance
I forgot what an angel is
The one with whom you cannot be
Who am I
To believe that she loves me
Who am I
I don't deserve any of it
What is right
What is wrong
I know not
Only what I want
What I want
Is you, my angel
And yet you love me not
So I am robbed once more
Why does it matter
This thing we call love
In the end of all things
Who will hear of my love
My poetry will die
I will die
My angel will die
And nobody will remember
Of a man called Dep
And his dark angel
Of his love for her
Of his tears for her
Nothing matters
So why carry on
When it all ends in loss
When all is forgotten
Because in the end
You measure a man
By what he stands for
By his actions
I will be remembered for loving
Not for giving up
Even though I know the outcome
I will gamble my heart
One year
So much love
Now she will know
Now she must know
Even if it hurts me
Even if it kills me
So much heartache
Anguish, pain, death
Sorrow and tears
She will know it all
So here on New Years Eve
I will tell her of my dreams
We will see if she loves
Or if eight years of love
If our love is but a dream
One Week
One week or less
Till my life will change
What will come of it
Of the words I'm going to say
I love you
What is to be
What is my fate
One week or less
And then we shall see
On one hand, darkness
Joy in the night
At being with you
At being in love
I want you
On the other, darkness
Depression in the night
At being without you
And being near you
I need you
So what is to be
My love, my dark angel
In less than a week
All will be made clear
One week or less
Till my life will change
What will come of it
Of the words I'm going to say
I love you
What is to be
What is my fate
One week or less
And then we shall see
On one hand, darkness
Joy in the night
At being with you
At being in love
I want you
On the other, darkness
Depression in the night
At being without you
And being near you
I need you
So what is to be
My love, my dark angel
In less than a week
All will be made clear
New Courage<
Break-ups and break-downs
Music floating through the air
So subtle a shift
So large a change
Not the person I once was
Once trying so hard
Aiming so high
No more
No more
Reaching as far as I can
I try to hold on
To my love, my angel
And to myself as well
Life ticks by
Disappearing forever
Still I sit and wait
Too afraid to move
Still I love
Still I care
New courage has found me
At last you shall hear
I love you
I want you
I need you
So my dark angel
Life turns again
Let us hear what you feel
Let us see in your head
Break-ups and break-downs
Music floating through the air
So subtle a shift
So large a change
Not the person I once was
Once trying so hard
Aiming so high
No more
No more
Reaching as far as I can
I try to hold on
To my love, my angel
And to myself as well
Life ticks by
Disappearing forever
Still I sit and wait
Too afraid to move
Still I love
Still I care
New courage has found me
At last you shall hear
I love you
I want you
I need you
So my dark angel
Life turns again
Let us hear what you feel
Let us see in your head
We Are The Dead
Forsaken or forgotten
Damned just the same
We are the Dead
Hear our sad true tale
In life we were men
Women, children and teens
Saw the world as it was
No illusions to our name
Lovers of one
All for one, all for love
Devoted, caring, loving
Dreamers of the same dream
Always did we say
It may be hard
But it cannot take
My passion, my love away
So we loved
So we lived
Watching the one
Our angels
Until we struck
Telling our one of our love
For us it was do or die
Or be forgotten
And so we died
Forsaken by our angels
Invisible to them
Forever
Or died in shadow
Never speaking nor acting
Our love a poison
Killing us from the inside
We are the Dead
Forgotten, forsaken
Not caring, not feeling
No dreams taking place
We are the Dead
Forsaken lovers
Forgotten romantics
Remember our sad tale
We are the Dead
We walk this Earth alone
Not feeling, nor loving
Betrayed by our true love
Now I am on the brink
On one side, paradise
Love, caring, feeling
Alive, with all the glory
On the other, Death
Grim uncaring
No emotion, no life
Only dreary existance
And still the voices call
We are the Dead
Forsaken lovers
Forgotten romantics
Join our cold, lonely ranks
Forsaken or forgotten
Damned just the same
We are the Dead
Hear our sad true tale
In life we were men
Women, children and teens
Saw the world as it was
No illusions to our name
Lovers of one
All for one, all for love
Devoted, caring, loving
Dreamers of the same dream
Always did we say
It may be hard
But it cannot take
My passion, my love away
So we loved
So we lived
Watching the one
Our angels
Until we struck
Telling our one of our love
For us it was do or die
Or be forgotten
And so we died
Forsaken by our angels
Invisible to them
Forever
Or died in shadow
Never speaking nor acting
Our love a poison
Killing us from the inside
We are the Dead
Forgotten, forsaken
Not caring, not feeling
No dreams taking place
We are the Dead
Forsaken lovers
Forgotten romantics
Remember our sad tale
We are the Dead
We walk this Earth alone
Not feeling, nor loving
Betrayed by our true love
Now I am on the brink
On one side, paradise
Love, caring, feeling
Alive, with all the glory
On the other, Death
Grim uncaring
No emotion, no life
Only dreary existance
And still the voices call
We are the Dead
Forsaken lovers
Forgotten romantics
Join our cold, lonely ranks
Clear
In the early hours of morning
Everything becomes clear
I see the truth and nothing else
Crystal clear to me now
I see that what I thought was love
Is not really love
Only the product of a fear
My fear of being alone
Only the product of lust
Only one person do I love
And this morning I can see
I've loved her for eight years
But does she love me?
It all becomes clear
What I now must do
No longer am I afraid
For I am certain I am right
When I say "I love you"
My path is now obvious
My love is now unquestioned
What I want is now certain
What I must do is now clear
Not one week from now
The words will be spoken
Eight years in the making
That night will be perfect
For me to say "I love you"
In the early hours of morning
Everything becomes clear
I see the truth and nothing else
Crystal clear to me now
I see that what I thought was love
Is not really love
Only the product of a fear
My fear of being alone
Only the product of lust
Only one person do I love
And this morning I can see
I've loved her for eight years
But does she love me?
It all becomes clear
What I now must do
No longer am I afraid
For I am certain I am right
When I say "I love you"
My path is now obvious
My love is now unquestioned
What I want is now certain
What I must do is now clear
Not one week from now
The words will be spoken
Eight years in the making
That night will be perfect
For me to say "I love you"
So This Is Love
Long cold winter nights
With only one thing to warm me
The body of my love
As we lie in the arms of each other
Love fills the air
As good silence reigns supreme
I look upon your sleeping face
And see the dream I dreamed
I remember past words
Past conceptions, past ideas
Some lost to me now
Yet some now gained
No longer must it be
That love is not lust
No, to love is to lust
But so much more as well
To love is to lust
Is to desire, is to want
To love is to care
To need, to feel, to dream
Love is all these things
And so much more
I dreamed a dream
And in it I saw
You and me together
As two in love should be
Endless nights together
Drinking coffee and talking
Or just sit, stare into your eyes
Holding each other tight
Joyful nights of pleasure
That seem to never end
No regrets or retribution
Completly right in our minds
Time apart when needed
Loving support whenever
Open communication
Say I love you for evermore
Quiet dinner movie dates
Or coffee in seclusion
Parties on New Years Eve
Or just time together at home
I dreamed you loved me
As I love you
You are all I want
You are all I need
You know all about me
From my darkest secrets to my heart
You understand why I am
The person that I am
I love you
I want you
I need you
So I dreamed a dream
Help me make it real
Help me combine love and lust
For I know I feel both
For you, my love
So this is love
As it nears Christmas Eve
I realize right now
Just what love is
For you I feel it
And so, I will tell
You're perfect as you are
Never change for me
Hold me, kiss me
Love me if you do
We can make it work
My angel of the dark
Long cold winter nights
With only one thing to warm me
The body of my love
As we lie in the arms of each other
Love fills the air
As good silence reigns supreme
I look upon your sleeping face
And see the dream I dreamed
I remember past words
Past conceptions, past ideas
Some lost to me now
Yet some now gained
No longer must it be
That love is not lust
No, to love is to lust
But so much more as well
To love is to lust
Is to desire, is to want
To love is to care
To need, to feel, to dream
Love is all these things
And so much more
I dreamed a dream
And in it I saw
You and me together
As two in love should be
Endless nights together
Drinking coffee and talking
Or just sit, stare into your eyes
Holding each other tight
Joyful nights of pleasure
That seem to never end
No regrets or retribution
Completly right in our minds
Time apart when needed
Loving support whenever
Open communication
Say I love you for evermore
Quiet dinner movie dates
Or coffee in seclusion
Parties on New Years Eve
Or just time together at home
I dreamed you loved me
As I love you
You are all I want
You are all I need
You know all about me
From my darkest secrets to my heart
You understand why I am
The person that I am
I love you
I want you
I need you
So I dreamed a dream
Help me make it real
Help me combine love and lust
For I know I feel both
For you, my love
So this is love
As it nears Christmas Eve
I realize right now
Just what love is
For you I feel it
And so, I will tell
You're perfect as you are
Never change for me
Hold me, kiss me
Love me if you do
We can make it work
My angel of the dark
The Words Will Come
Today or tomorrow
Once in forever
The words will come
To tell you what I must
What words cannot tell
What English cannot express
So simple, so short
Yet so much more than mere words
What for ages untold
This went left unsaid
Now I may fix it
If only the words would come
How to say I love you
How to say I care
How to say I want you
How to say I need you
Without scaring you away
How to let you know
Without scaring you away
Life is all choices
And you have one to make
Take all the time you need
I will sit and wait
For I love you
And because I do
I'll let you follow your dreams
Eevn if its not with me
Follow your dreams
Leave me if you must
But I will always love you
My angel of the dark
Today or tomorrow
Once in forever
The words will come
To tell you what I must
What words cannot tell
What English cannot express
So simple, so short
Yet so much more than mere words
What for ages untold
This went left unsaid
Now I may fix it
If only the words would come
How to say I love you
How to say I care
How to say I want you
How to say I need you
Without scaring you away
How to let you know
Without scaring you away
Life is all choices
And you have one to make
Take all the time you need
I will sit and wait
For I love you
And because I do
I'll let you follow your dreams
Eevn if its not with me
Follow your dreams
Leave me if you must
But I will always love you
My angel of the dark
Why Do I Love
Seeing lovers hug
Seeing couples kiss
Brings back dark memories
Of a time like this
When I hugged and kissed
When I loved and was loved
Now, only I love
For no one can love me
Impossible to imagine
Someone loving me
Especially someone
As beautiful as thee
So why do I wait
Why do I cry
Why do I hope
You'll come back to me
Why do I write
Why do I care
Why do I love
Why do I live
When in the end
It all means nothing
No prize to be won
For I cannot be loved
Seeing lovers hug
Seeing couples kiss
Brings back dark memories
Of a time like this
When I hugged and kissed
When I loved and was loved
Now, only I love
For no one can love me
Impossible to imagine
Someone loving me
Especially someone
As beautiful as thee
So why do I wait
Why do I cry
Why do I hope
You'll come back to me
Why do I write
Why do I care
Why do I love
Why do I live
When in the end
It all means nothing
No prize to be won
For I cannot be loved
What Do You Do
When love turns to dust
When feelings clash within
When your one forsakes you
When love is all a memory
What then do you do?
When there's nothing left to live for
And everything to die for
When all that remains of your love
Is dust, ashes and pain
What then do you do?
When you've run out of choices
When you've run out of time
When you've run out of hope
When you've run out of rhymes
What then do you do?
When there's no one left to love
Who will love you back
And all that remains is hate
Old memories and pain
What then do you do?
When your hope runs dry
When you can't lift your head
When you stop believing in love
When you just plain give up
What then do you do?
Run to the hills of death?
Forever to stay
Abandon your morality?
In hopes of a better way
Stay and pray for salvation?
In the form of a dark angel from heaven
Bury yourself in drink?
Trying to drink the demons away
When you've lost all reason to live
And have every reason to die
When you've lost all belief in love
And know you'll always be alone
What then do you do?
When love turns to dust
When feelings clash within
When your one forsakes you
When love is all a memory
What then do you do?
When there's nothing left to live for
And everything to die for
When all that remains of your love
Is dust, ashes and pain
What then do you do?
When you've run out of choices
When you've run out of time
When you've run out of hope
When you've run out of rhymes
What then do you do?
When there's no one left to love
Who will love you back
And all that remains is hate
Old memories and pain
What then do you do?
When your hope runs dry
When you can't lift your head
When you stop believing in love
When you just plain give up
What then do you do?
Run to the hills of death?
Forever to stay
Abandon your morality?
In hopes of a better way
Stay and pray for salvation?
In the form of a dark angel from heaven
Bury yourself in drink?
Trying to drink the demons away
When you've lost all reason to live
And have every reason to die
When you've lost all belief in love
And know you'll always be alone
What then do you do?
Undone
The seconds of eternity tick past
Changing into minutes, hours
Days, weeks, months
And finally years
We leave so much undone
In our lifetime
Regrets of actions, of words
Of not doing anything at all
Now I'm on a brink
No one can help me now
My own choices I must make
The consequences, I must accept
To tell or not to tell
This woman how I feel
What would be her answer
What does she really feel
I lie staring at the wall
Yet not seeing it at all
Is this my fate, to always feel
Yet never partake of love at all
We leave so much undone
I must tell her soon
For if I never say I love you
How can I expect her to?
The seconds of eternity tick past
Changing into minutes, hours
Days, weeks, months
And finally years
We leave so much undone
In our lifetime
Regrets of actions, of words
Of not doing anything at all
Now I'm on a brink
No one can help me now
My own choices I must make
The consequences, I must accept
To tell or not to tell
This woman how I feel
What would be her answer
What does she really feel
I lie staring at the wall
Yet not seeing it at all
Is this my fate, to always feel
Yet never partake of love at all
We leave so much undone
I must tell her soon
For if I never say I love you
How can I expect her to?
Sit And Dream
In the wee hours of morning
I sit and dream
Dream of you
Brown hair, brown eyes
You're searching for something
Yet you know not what
The minutes tick by
Time drifting away
Lost forever
In the darkness of night
You realize how much things mean
Things like love, honor,
Music, life, tears and joy
You realize what you want
And I want somebody to love
Alone in this god-damned darkness
Where no light can go
Alone in my darkness
Who can help me now?
Though I wish for love
I know I will not find
No one can love me
No one will love me
Yet close by me now
Is one whom I do love
Brown haired, brown eyed
What goes on inside?
Can she love someone like me
Two years older
So different from most others
Does she even love me?
Acting immature
Saying she is not
No longer am I sure
What's real and what's not
Help me find my path
Whatever shall I do
I wish that she would tell me
What she wants to do
For I know what I want
But not what she wants
What must I do
In the wee hours of morning
I sit and dream
The minutes tick by
As I sit and dream about
Brown hair and brown eyes.
In the wee hours of morning
I sit and dream
Dream of you
Brown hair, brown eyes
You're searching for something
Yet you know not what
The minutes tick by
Time drifting away
Lost forever
In the darkness of night
You realize how much things mean
Things like love, honor,
Music, life, tears and joy
You realize what you want
And I want somebody to love
Alone in this god-damned darkness
Where no light can go
Alone in my darkness
Who can help me now?
Though I wish for love
I know I will not find
No one can love me
No one will love me
Yet close by me now
Is one whom I do love
Brown haired, brown eyed
What goes on inside?
Can she love someone like me
Two years older
So different from most others
Does she even love me?
Acting immature
Saying she is not
No longer am I sure
What's real and what's not
Help me find my path
Whatever shall I do
I wish that she would tell me
What she wants to do
For I know what I want
But not what she wants
What must I do
In the wee hours of morning
I sit and dream
The minutes tick by
As I sit and dream about
Brown hair and brown eyes.
Over The Rainbow
What will she say
What will she do
She says we need to talk
Can it be good?
Nervousness pounds my heart
I hope that she loves
I hope that she cares
In not so many hours
I will learn the truth
If love, hate or nothing
Lie in her heart for me
Over the horizon
I see new love approach
Good love, true love
Not lust at all
Over the rainbow
I see my dream
Soon to be dissolved?
Not love at all?
Only time can tell
If tis meant to be
So until then
I hope and pray for
La-ti-da
What will she say
What will she do
She says we need to talk
Can it be good?
Nervousness pounds my heart
I hope that she loves
I hope that she cares
In not so many hours
I will learn the truth
If love, hate or nothing
Lie in her heart for me
Over the horizon
I see new love approach
Good love, true love
Not lust at all
Over the rainbow
I see my dream
Soon to be dissolved?
Not love at all?
Only time can tell
If tis meant to be
So until then
I hope and pray for
La-ti-da
Omnia Vincit Amor
Lying beside you
Gazing into your eyes
All seems possible
My future not so bleak
Your hair, so soft
Runs beneath my fingers
So smooth, so fine
Like a river of silk
Your skin, so smooth
As I play with your ear
So tender, so warm
Up, around and down
Feeling your heart beat
Feeling you breath
All as I lay
Lost in your eyes
So full of love
Am I right now
For this creature beside me
So strong, so beautiful
I love her
And I love being here
Lying beside her
Lost in her eyes and in my love
Lying beside you
Gazing into your eyes
All seems possible
My future not so bleak
Your hair, so soft
Runs beneath my fingers
So smooth, so fine
Like a river of silk
Your skin, so smooth
As I play with your ear
So tender, so warm
Up, around and down
Feeling your heart beat
Feeling you breath
All as I lay
Lost in your eyes
So full of love
Am I right now
For this creature beside me
So strong, so beautiful
I love her
And I love being here
Lying beside her
Lost in her eyes and in my love
My Fate
Is this my fate
To be here, alone
No lover, no hope
Sitting on cold stone
To love my love so fair
To watch her with another
To sit and watch alone
As years go on and on
To sit in the wet snow
And write of her, my love
To see her tonight and forever
And wonder about my fate
To love is to feel pain
When you are alone
Without your true love
You truely are alone
Tonight I watch them together
Kiss
Hug
Laugh
And I pretend it's alright
Even though deep in my heart
I know it is not
Cold, alone, tired
I watch the rising stars
Heralds of my fate
Not friends nor family
Nor pleasures of this life
Can ever make me forget
My love upon this night
So is it my fate
To be alone forever
IS it my fate
To love and never have
Does she even know
Just how deep my love goes
I don't think she does
No, not right now
So is it my fate
To love and never have
To be alone forever
Loving, yet never loved
Is this my fate?
Is this my fate
To be here, alone
No lover, no hope
Sitting on cold stone
To love my love so fair
To watch her with another
To sit and watch alone
As years go on and on
To sit in the wet snow
And write of her, my love
To see her tonight and forever
And wonder about my fate
To love is to feel pain
When you are alone
Without your true love
You truely are alone
Tonight I watch them together
Kiss
Hug
Laugh
And I pretend it's alright
Even though deep in my heart
I know it is not
Cold, alone, tired
I watch the rising stars
Heralds of my fate
Not friends nor family
Nor pleasures of this life
Can ever make me forget
My love upon this night
So is it my fate
To be alone forever
IS it my fate
To love and never have
Does she even know
Just how deep my love goes
I don't think she does
No, not right now
So is it my fate
To love and never have
To be alone forever
Loving, yet never loved
Is this my fate?
Love
I watch you lie
Upon your couch
I sit and stare
Without a doubt
I play with your ear
So warm and soft
Play with your hair
So smooth and soft
I lie beside you
Feel your heart beat
My head on your shoulder
Feel you breathe deep
I love you dearly
Can't you see
Just how much
You mean to me
What dos it mean
This word called love
Upon this night
I've found the truth
I watch you lie
Upon your couch
And hope one day
The truth will come out
I watch you lie
Upon your couch
I sit and stare
Without a doubt
I play with your ear
So warm and soft
Play with your hair
So smooth and soft
I lie beside you
Feel your heart beat
My head on your shoulder
Feel you breathe deep
I love you dearly
Can't you see
Just how much
You mean to me
What dos it mean
This word called love
Upon this night
I've found the truth
I watch you lie
Upon your couch
And hope one day
The truth will come out
Left Or Right
Torn to the left
Torn to the right
No hope for salvation
Of an easier sort
Far from here
Through time and space
I lie with my love
And pray for a chance
Life's without a care
Except her in my arms
My love, my heart
My angel of the dark
My tears each night
While we are apart
My smiles each day
Are all for her
My silent depressive moods
Caused by her and me
By the memories I have
Of times we were together
For now we are apart
Now I am quite torn
Between my love of old
And promises of another
Which should I choose
I know it not
My love for Dark Angel
Still burns hot
Torn to the left
Torn to the right
Between old love and new
What must I do?
Torn to the left
Torn to the right
No hope for salvation
Of an easier sort
Far from here
Through time and space
I lie with my love
And pray for a chance
Life's without a care
Except her in my arms
My love, my heart
My angel of the dark
My tears each night
While we are apart
My smiles each day
Are all for her
My silent depressive moods
Caused by her and me
By the memories I have
Of times we were together
For now we are apart
Now I am quite torn
Between my love of old
And promises of another
Which should I choose
I know it not
My love for Dark Angel
Still burns hot
Torn to the left
Torn to the right
Between old love and new
What must I do?
For You, My Dark Angel
Here in the blackness of night
As shadows take control
I gaze upon your sleeping face
And what I might say
Of love, of desire
Of wanting, of needing
Yet also of sorrow
Of the pain of missing
How to tell you
Those few simple words
I love you, I need you
I want you more than the world
Words come not easily
To one so timid
Nervous about what you'll say
When I say you mean everything
I know you said we're better
As friends, not as lovers
But no matter what you say
I will still love you
Life without you is hard
Yet I can endure
So just how far we go
Is completly up to you
Take as long as you want
In deciding our fate
Know that I love you
But know I won't hold you down
Here in the blackness of night
As shadows take control
I gaze upon your sleeping face
And what I might say
Of love, of desire
Of wanting, of needing
Yet also of sorrow
Of the pain of missing
How to tell you
Those few simple words
I love you, I need you
I want you more than the world
Words come not easily
To one so timid
Nervous about what you'll say
When I say you mean everything
I know you said we're better
As friends, not as lovers
But no matter what you say
I will still love you
Life without you is hard
Yet I can endure
So just how far we go
Is completly up to you
Take as long as you want
In deciding our fate
Know that I love you
But know I won't hold you down
For Love
What is it about
That which we call love
To want, desire and care
For those whom we love
And yet, to give it all up
If that is what they want
To conceal our love
If they want it not
So for now and forever
I won't hold you done
For love, I will not
Tie you to this land
Be free, explore
Do what you want more
Be with whom you love
Even if I'm sore
For love, I do this
Give up all that I want
For your sake, I will
If it's what you want
For love, anything
Is possible tonight
So what is it about
This thing that we call love
What is it about
That which we call love
To want, desire and care
For those whom we love
And yet, to give it all up
If that is what they want
To conceal our love
If they want it not
So for now and forever
I won't hold you done
For love, I will not
Tie you to this land
Be free, explore
Do what you want more
Be with whom you love
Even if I'm sore
For love, I do this
Give up all that I want
For your sake, I will
If it's what you want
For love, anything
Is possible tonight
So what is it about
This thing that we call love
Desert
The stars stare down
Upon my face tonight
A cold, empty wind
Blows across the desert
Desert of pain
Desert of loss
Deser of sorrow
Desert of things left unsaid
Now in the dark
I ponder my fate
To be or not to be
Will it be love or hate
My dark hour is near
I feel it's approach
No longer can I linger
Upon this place I wait
Tell her I must
Of my love, my heart
To relieve her pain and worry
And mine as well
Cold wind blows
Across this open desert
Now off I must go
To tell my love of my love
The stars stare down
Upon my face tonight
A cold, empty wind
Blows across the desert
Desert of pain
Desert of loss
Deser of sorrow
Desert of things left unsaid
Now in the dark
I ponder my fate
To be or not to be
Will it be love or hate
My dark hour is near
I feel it's approach
No longer can I linger
Upon this place I wait
Tell her I must
Of my love, my heart
To relieve her pain and worry
And mine as well
Cold wind blows
Across this open desert
Now off I must go
To tell my love of my love
Anything For Love
On a cold winter's night
I dream about the things
Which should be, could be
And now, never will be
I dream of my dark angel
Of loving her, of life together
Of caring, emotion and joy
Of never turning back
Thunder of music
Pounds my head
Anything for love
Anything at all
But what about that
Leaving, forgetting
Pretending I do not love
Could I do that
On a cold winter's night
Or a hot summer one
I offer my heart to you
To do with as you please
Love me or not
I want the truth
For only the truth
Can set me free
On a cold winter's night
I dream of thee
Of us together
Of what could be
Of things left unsaid
Undone, unwanted
What I can fix
I will fix now
I love you
I want you
I need you
I care for you
Anything for you
Anything for love
My only promise
The only one I can make
I will make mistakes
As do all living things
I hope you'll forgive me
And help me to fix them
For love
On a cold winter's night
I dream about the things
Which should be, could be
And now, never will be
I dream of my dark angel
Of loving her, of life together
Of caring, emotion and joy
Of never turning back
Thunder of music
Pounds my head
Anything for love
Anything at all
But what about that
Leaving, forgetting
Pretending I do not love
Could I do that
On a cold winter's night
Or a hot summer one
I offer my heart to you
To do with as you please
Love me or not
I want the truth
For only the truth
Can set me free
On a cold winter's night
I dream of thee
Of us together
Of what could be
Of things left unsaid
Undone, unwanted
What I can fix
I will fix now
I love you
I want you
I need you
I care for you
Anything for you
Anything for love
My only promise
The only one I can make
I will make mistakes
As do all living things
I hope you'll forgive me
And help me to fix them
For love
AS IT WAS MEANT TO BE
Alone here on the eve of a new year
Not three hours to go
What saviour have I
What hope have I
When those who I love
Do not even care about me
My tears drip onto the page
As what love is left inside
Dies forever and ever
Never to see life again
Forgive me
Those of you who trusted me
Those of you who believed in me
I have failed
Love will die tonight
In a rain of tears
For who could love me
Who among all of these
Not strong, but weak
Not smart, but dumb
A fool was I to believe
Anyone could love me
So farewell my believers
Forgive me for my failure
I take my place among the Dead
Who walk among the living
Nothing left for me
Except mere existance
Dead but still alive
As it was meant to be
Alone here on the eve of a new year
Not three hours to go
What saviour have I
What hope have I
When those who I love
Do not even care about me
My tears drip onto the page
As what love is left inside
Dies forever and ever
Never to see life again
Forgive me
Those of you who trusted me
Those of you who believed in me
I have failed
Love will die tonight
In a rain of tears
For who could love me
Who among all of these
Not strong, but weak
Not smart, but dumb
A fool was I to believe
Anyone could love me
So farewell my believers
Forgive me for my failure
I take my place among the Dead
Who walk among the living
Nothing left for me
Except mere existance
Dead but still alive
As it was meant to be
ALONE ONCE MORE
Alone once more
As they run for the door
Nothing more I can say
Just let them run away
Will love ever find me
Will despair ever cease
Will I sit here always
While my face does crease
Why must I care
For those around me
Why must I love
Those cannot for me
Deep in my night
I ponder my fate
Alone forever
For no one can love me
Not Freya, in her beauty
Nor Scorpi in her own
Not Laura in her caring
Nor Dark Angel, love untold
Alone once more
Now and forever
Love ventures into night
Until light hits once more
Alone once more
As they run for the door
Nothing more I can say
Just let them run away
Will love ever find me
Will despair ever cease
Will I sit here always
While my face does crease
Why must I care
For those around me
Why must I love
Those cannot for me
Deep in my night
I ponder my fate
Alone forever
For no one can love me
Not Freya, in her beauty
Nor Scorpi in her own
Not Laura in her caring
Nor Dark Angel, love untold
Alone once more
Now and forever
Love ventures into night
Until light hits once more
ALONE ON A FALL EVENING
If you knew how it would end
Alone, on a fall evening
No lover, no girlfriend
No hope for another
If you knew how it would end
In heartbreak and disaster
In lost love and in sorrow
Would you do it again?
Endure months of heartache
Seperated from Dark Angel
Fallen in love with her
Spent your tearsr on her
Walk down these same paths
Trying to find your love
And once you found it
Would you have tried
To pick the golden apple
That we call love
If you had known how it would end
Would you have tred these paths of love
Would you try for what cannot be
Would you have done it all the same
Knowing how it would end
If you knew how it would end
Alone, on a fall evening
No lover, no girlfriend
No hope for another
If you knew how it would end
In heartbreak and disaster
In lost love and in sorrow
Would you do it again?
Endure months of heartache
Seperated from Dark Angel
Fallen in love with her
Spent your tearsr on her
Walk down these same paths
Trying to find your love
And once you found it
Would you have tried
To pick the golden apple
That we call love
If you had known how it would end
Would you have tred these paths of love
Would you try for what cannot be
Would you have done it all the same
Knowing how it would end
All Things End
Summer to winter
Day to night
Life to death
All things end
Love has gone from me
Can't you see
You've done so much for me
Yet you cannot see
You cannot see my love
Cannot see my tears
Only your own can you see
As you blame all on me
So as summer turns to winter
As my day becomes night
As my life becomes living death
I realize that all things end
Even your love, in which I trust
Even it ends, turns to dust
If your love, which was thought true
By Goddess of Love...
By all around us
By me
If your love is false how
How can love endure?
Is love not like summer
Not like day, not like life
Does it have no end?
Summer turns to winter
And my heart fades
Day turns into night
And my hope fades
For love has an end
As must all things
Forever lost is my hope
That love endures forever
Summer to winter
Day to night
Life to death
Love to hate
All things end
Summer to winter
Day to night
Life to death
All things end
Love has gone from me
Can't you see
You've done so much for me
Yet you cannot see
You cannot see my love
Cannot see my tears
Only your own can you see
As you blame all on me
So as summer turns to winter
As my day becomes night
As my life becomes living death
I realize that all things end
Even your love, in which I trust
Even it ends, turns to dust
If your love, which was thought true
By Goddess of Love...
By all around us
By me
If your love is false how
How can love endure?
Is love not like summer
Not like day, not like life
Does it have no end?
Summer turns to winter
And my heart fades
Day turns into night
And my hope fades
For love has an end
As must all things
Forever lost is my hope
That love endures forever
Summer to winter
Day to night
Life to death
Love to hate
All things end
