Friday, January 23, 2004
One Year
One year
Many minutes gone by
Many miles behind me
As I continue my journey
Into hell
Into heaven
Here upon this night
Without you, without anyone
My feelings trashed
My heart bleeding upon the floor
One year
Yet I have lived a lifetime
But nothing have I gained
Except shattered dreams of love
of lust
of happiness
So here we stand
On the eve of a new year
And what will you say
When I say I love you to your face
One year
So much discovered, learned
So many tears have I cried
For thee, my angel of the dark
For Freya
For everyone
Robbed of perfection thrice
But what does it matter now
For when it's all said and done
What does anything matter
There is no one for me
I realize that now
In my foolish arrogance
I forgot what an angel is
The one with whom you cannot be
Who am I
To believe that she loves me
Who am I
I don't deserve any of it
What is right
What is wrong
I know not
Only what I want
What I want
Is you, my angel
And yet you love me not
So I am robbed once more
Why does it matter
This thing we call love
In the end of all things
Who will hear of my love
My poetry will die
I will die
My angel will die
And nobody will remember
Of a man called Dep
And his dark angel
Of his love for her
Of his tears for her
Nothing matters
So why carry on
When it all ends in loss
When all is forgotten
Because in the end
You measure a man
By what he stands for
By his actions
I will be remembered for loving
Not for giving up
Even though I know the outcome
I will gamble my heart
One year
So much love
Now she will know
Now she must know
Even if it hurts me
Even if it kills me
So much heartache
Anguish, pain, death
Sorrow and tears
She will know it all
So here on New Years Eve
I will tell her of my dreams
We will see if she loves
Or if eight years of love
If our love is but a dream
One year
Many minutes gone by
Many miles behind me
As I continue my journey
Into hell
Into heaven
Here upon this night
Without you, without anyone
My feelings trashed
My heart bleeding upon the floor
One year
Yet I have lived a lifetime
But nothing have I gained
Except shattered dreams of love
of lust
of happiness
So here we stand
On the eve of a new year
And what will you say
When I say I love you to your face
One year
So much discovered, learned
So many tears have I cried
For thee, my angel of the dark
For Freya
For everyone
Robbed of perfection thrice
But what does it matter now
For when it's all said and done
What does anything matter
There is no one for me
I realize that now
In my foolish arrogance
I forgot what an angel is
The one with whom you cannot be
Who am I
To believe that she loves me
Who am I
I don't deserve any of it
What is right
What is wrong
I know not
Only what I want
What I want
Is you, my angel
And yet you love me not
So I am robbed once more
Why does it matter
This thing we call love
In the end of all things
Who will hear of my love
My poetry will die
I will die
My angel will die
And nobody will remember
Of a man called Dep
And his dark angel
Of his love for her
Of his tears for her
Nothing matters
So why carry on
When it all ends in loss
When all is forgotten
Because in the end
You measure a man
By what he stands for
By his actions
I will be remembered for loving
Not for giving up
Even though I know the outcome
I will gamble my heart
One year
So much love
Now she will know
Now she must know
Even if it hurts me
Even if it kills me
So much heartache
Anguish, pain, death
Sorrow and tears
She will know it all
So here on New Years Eve
I will tell her of my dreams
We will see if she loves
Or if eight years of love
If our love is but a dream
