Saturday, July 31, 2004
I feel that some form of explanation is required for each of these, why I wrote it and so forth.
This first one I wrote because well... I have feelings for two people. Inside myself I really can't make up my mind which I like more, they both appeal to different parts of me. The problem is one of them lives far away and the other one lives here. That sways things some. But not enough to make this a clear decision on my part. Hell I'm not even certain that there is a decision to make. So I wrote this poem just to get out my feelings for both of these people. I don't know if either of them likes me enough to go out with me even. It's all up in the air and I have no clue where things are coming down and there are lies and half-truths floating around on one person (the one here). So *shrugs* here's the poem, enjoy. (No I'm not telling you who it's about. If you can guess, fine. I'm not telling one way or another.)
One or the Other(July 31st 2004)
I'll admit it now
In the darkness of a long night
Under the pale moonlight we both love
Yes I still dream of you
Still dream of you, my love
Dream of a time when I was happy
Happy when I was with you
Of being with you, yes I still dream
And maybe I said I hated you
Hated you for what other's said you did
But anger and hatred fade so quickly
Fade quickly from the love in my heart
And now my heart tells me of you
My heart says I need you
I need you and I want you
But what am I to do
Distance I can avoid
But I cannot avoid your feelings
Feelings stronger for another and mine
These feelings of mine for another
Another dilemna for me to ponder
Ponder between you and another
Which of these feelings among each other
Which of these is stronger?
I don't know
And it probably doesn't matter
If history is to be believed
I can never have one nor the other
Yeah it's a kind of sad poem. Back to my old style for a little bit, it's what I'm feeling right now though so don't bitch. I left the ending hanging because I honestly don't know what I'm going to do. Probably just going to ask the person here for several reasons. She's here and I doubt the other person will say yes (hey I can be wrong but I'm usually right.)
Alright, second poem is about the person here. It explains a lot of the problems with her. Again I'm not telling who it's about.
Don't(July 31st, 2004)
Quit lying, I beg of thee
To me and to thee
Imagine what there is to be gained
Not how far you can fall from the top
Believe in the bonds which bind us
Don't give in to fear
Don't bow to the pain
Don't let it win
Don't give up before you begin
Hold on to your feelings
Hold on to life
Believe in me and my feelings
Don't close your eyes to hide
Live in the light as I do
Instead of hiding in the dark
Believe in yourself
You can handle the pain
Quit lying to yourself
And show me what you feel.
It's perhaps more happy than the first. This is pretty much what I want to say to the person here. Even if we don't end up together, helping her is worthwhile.
Anyways, that's it for today. Later.
This first one I wrote because well... I have feelings for two people. Inside myself I really can't make up my mind which I like more, they both appeal to different parts of me. The problem is one of them lives far away and the other one lives here. That sways things some. But not enough to make this a clear decision on my part. Hell I'm not even certain that there is a decision to make. So I wrote this poem just to get out my feelings for both of these people. I don't know if either of them likes me enough to go out with me even. It's all up in the air and I have no clue where things are coming down and there are lies and half-truths floating around on one person (the one here). So *shrugs* here's the poem, enjoy. (No I'm not telling you who it's about. If you can guess, fine. I'm not telling one way or another.)
One or the Other(July 31st 2004)
I'll admit it now
In the darkness of a long night
Under the pale moonlight we both love
Yes I still dream of you
Still dream of you, my love
Dream of a time when I was happy
Happy when I was with you
Of being with you, yes I still dream
And maybe I said I hated you
Hated you for what other's said you did
But anger and hatred fade so quickly
Fade quickly from the love in my heart
And now my heart tells me of you
My heart says I need you
I need you and I want you
But what am I to do
Distance I can avoid
But I cannot avoid your feelings
Feelings stronger for another and mine
These feelings of mine for another
Another dilemna for me to ponder
Ponder between you and another
Which of these feelings among each other
Which of these is stronger?
I don't know
And it probably doesn't matter
If history is to be believed
I can never have one nor the other
Yeah it's a kind of sad poem. Back to my old style for a little bit, it's what I'm feeling right now though so don't bitch. I left the ending hanging because I honestly don't know what I'm going to do. Probably just going to ask the person here for several reasons. She's here and I doubt the other person will say yes (hey I can be wrong but I'm usually right.)
Alright, second poem is about the person here. It explains a lot of the problems with her. Again I'm not telling who it's about.
Don't(July 31st, 2004)
Quit lying, I beg of thee
To me and to thee
Imagine what there is to be gained
Not how far you can fall from the top
Believe in the bonds which bind us
Don't give in to fear
Don't bow to the pain
Don't let it win
Don't give up before you begin
Hold on to your feelings
Hold on to life
Believe in me and my feelings
Don't close your eyes to hide
Live in the light as I do
Instead of hiding in the dark
Believe in yourself
You can handle the pain
Quit lying to yourself
And show me what you feel.
It's perhaps more happy than the first. This is pretty much what I want to say to the person here. Even if we don't end up together, helping her is worthwhile.
Anyways, that's it for today. Later.
