Dep's Poetry

HERE IT ENDS
And so it ends
In tears and sorrow
At the words of another
So this all ends

As tears fall from my eyes
I reflect on happier times
On the days gone by
When we were happy

Now I am empty
Without you to love
To complete my soul
I am nothing

Yet I must move on
To new love, new paths
Yet never in my life
Can I kill these feelings for you

But now that I know
There is no love in you
What was once all of me
Becomes a shadow of itself

So here I sit in tears
Not soon to be relieved
Here I sit and wait
For my true love to come by

Here it ends
For she is my angel
She who loves me not
Here it must end

(Dedicated to Victoria Grandmaison, my angel. May she live a long life full of joy without me by her side.)

Dep

DARKNESS AND SHADOW
Darkness and shadow
Fill me to the brim
And what was once love
Is now a large doubt

Darkness and shaddow
Having been forsaken
Yet not forsaken completely
Only makes it worse

Please let it end
I can't take much more
Darkness and shadow
Threaten to drown me

A never ending sea of depression
Is all that awaits me now
Nothing left for me
But darkness and shadow

So you who know me
You who've said I'm great
Bolster me once more
Against darkness and shadow

You who've claimed to love me
You who've read my works
You who read this now
Save me from myself

From darkness...
And from shadow...

RIGHT AND WRONG
What is right
What is wrong
Who am I to say
That this is right

That it is meant to be
Between me and my angel
That what I want tonight
Is truly what I want

Who am I to say
When even I do not know
What is what, who I want
And nothing is for sure

There are a few others
With whom I see myself
So now what should I do
When nothing is clear

My life is but a shadow
Of what it might be
Please show me the right path
So I may find the light

Give me a sign
Of who I must choose
Tell me right from wrong
So that I may save myself

THE WORLD'S FATE
And the world paused
As if drawing a deep breath
All around me came stillness
The calm before the storm

And the people stood in silence
Staring at each other
The with a mighty rumble
The storm came upon the world

Lightning flashed and thunder roared
Destroying all that I held dear
Then someone yelled "This is not right!"
With shock I saw it was myself

And the world paused
Then began to change
All around me
Things returned the same

The world paused
As if drawing a deep breath
All around me came stillness
The calm before the storm

And I stood in silence
Knowing what is to come
Unable to change a thing
Unable to alter fate

And then the storm broke
On me and me alone
No time to realize
I'd taken the world's fate
Upon myself

WINDS OF CHANGE
Trees stand still around me
No wind rustles my hair
All around me the world stands still
Waiting for today's encounter

As if drawing a deep breath
The trees are still
The clouds do not move
No sun to speak of

What will happen after
The calm before the storm
Only time can tell
And those who see the future

I go now to my fate
Whatever it may be
And around me as trees stand still
A gentle wind begins to blow

THE PAST
The past is the past they say
And my future's already set
Yet there are days I wish
You and I were together

For now that I see
With eyes unclouded
You and I seem perfect
Though perhaps I merely dream

But the past must be the past
And I must look towards the future
For we've tred these paths before
And it has come to naught

But still I gaze each day
Upon thy beautiful face
And wish that I could
Know thee better today

But since it cannot be
Instead I'll keep my peace
Try for my Dark Angel
And forget these dreams of others

TEMPEST
More violent than a tempest
Sadder than a willow
Darker than the night
More lonely than the sea

For upon this black night
Truly the blackest of all
Memories return to me
Visions of you haunt me

The smell of french vanilla
The darkness of the night
The twinkling of stars above me
All these things do haunt me

For you have brought them
In moments we shared
Shocking, can you remember
Those moments so long ago

Being together
Holding the other
Nothing else to do
But love one another

Now they are but dust
Dust floating in the wind
Never to be remembered
Never to be found again

Now my world is shattered
After the passing of the tempest
Can I live without you
But can I live with you

TIME BORROWED
Eyes which see tomorrow
A curse which brings much sorrow
Leaves one feeling quite hollow
As one gazes upon the morrow
Her living on time borrowed
And time beginning to swallow
Her faith beginning to wallow
As he becomes too shallow

To sit and do nothing
As she puts on the ring
A curse but I must sing
His praises as a king
Then she sees a failing
While the sun is fading
Wants to do anything
To stop this way of ending

But in the end is nothing
No one can stop time's ticking
Only change the way it's flowing
And by such change the ending

My eyes which see tomorrow
A curse which brings me sorrow
Leaves me feeling quite hollow
As I gaze upon the morrow

FYRE OF LOVE
What one will ignore
I will now persue
What one would have me abandon
I shall never turn from
Should it lead into darkness
Into myst and shadow
I will not be deterred
From the path I have chosen

Should she abandon all hope
Mine will be there
Should she lack the strength
I will carry her
Should she lack the courage
To face the torment of others
My courage will hold us up
As we face the torment together

Though it may lead to heartbreak
Rejection and pain
I still will not turn
For love guides my steps

Believe in me
Believe in my love
For it is true and eternal
And it will never go out

THE DAMNED
In the hands of fate
Control slipping away
No longer can I wait
No longer to sit by the quay

Behold, here is the Future
Written in silver
On pages of darkness
In a book with no cover

And now, knowing all
I walk this Earth alone
No hope for myself
No hope for mankind

With an empty cold gaze
I walk through this place
Silent forever
For I am the Damned

All knowing
All seeing
Nothing to guess
Nothing to find

Only bleak eternity
Awaits me now
As I walk this land
In silence

KNOWING
Knowing the ending of your play
Would you have begun the writing
Knowing the ending of the story
Would you have begun to read

Knowing the ending of your life
Would you have begun to live
Knowing the ending of the song
Would you have begun to listen

Knowing the ending of the music
Would you have begun to play
Knowing the ending of your journey
Would you have begun to walk

Knowing the ending of the phrase
Would you have begun to speak
Knowing the ending of your love
Would you have begun to care

TOMORROW
Believe as I believe
Live as I have lived
Know as I know
See the terrible truth

Time ticks forever onwards
Carrying lives, souls and hearts
Into a deep black pit
Where all things must end

It is then that you realize
There is no tomorrow
Only today, right now
To do what you must do

So upon this night
AS we lie in the dark
Things that lay hidden
Will be pulled into the light

With a few small words
I will redeem myself
Of mistakes long made
And things left undone

For upon this night
What should have been said yesterday
Will be said today
For there is no tomorrow

THE DEPTHS OF SORROW
In the depths of time
Locked away without a rhyme
Who will save me now

Day and night the same
Driving me insane
Blinded by the truth
Someone call my name

In the depths of sorrow
Locked away, no hope for tomorrow
Who will save me now

Alive but dead inside
Wanting of this ride
Believing with out hope
That I can change the tide

Believing in love
That I will find a dove
No chance, no hope
Time to remove the glove

In the depths of heartache
Locked away, my hopes all fake
Who will save me now

When those around me
Do not believe it could be
Do not believe when I say
The one for me is she

In the depths of eternity
Locked away without a key
Who will save me now